God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

Is it only if you keep busy when working with your H? If you get involved in other things that don't include H would you feel good too?

No WCW its better busy no matter what I'm doing or who I'm with. Trust me WCW something more or else to do is not what I'm looking for. Sometimes it's as though there is not enough hours in the day. What I am searching for is a different "life". Like now, we go to work, we work at home, we eat, we sleep, then do it all over again. Weekends, we work, we sit and talk, we go to bed. Once in awhile we might go to someones house and visit.

I am looking at things the way H may see them. I see the same ol same ol. How do I make things different? So many things I want to do different with him but in the sitch I can't. Too soo, to pushy, too... Today at work I am sitting there working, my mind is running. I wish I could say to H "go away with me this weekend" and he would go. We'd jump in the car and head to state to the south. Stop where ever, just drive, just spend time away. But again, too pushy, too soon, etc...

IMO your H is seeing if he can feel safe around you. Remember the old saying 'believe half of what you hear'...I think it's even less than that.

Maybe...who knows. All I know is he's been saying this every so often since he left. And before MLC he used to say he was never going no where. Then he left...