how can I only seem to make it 2 days truely happy and in a good mood and come today, day three, I'm so sad. I work with so many men and most of them older.. and they have all seemed to stay married and seem to be happy. They tell me stories of their wives, and I think to myself, gosh they seem fine and put up with their cr@p.... I'm not half that bad and my H had to run into the first available warm arms....
Then I have the thought that my H came to me when our baby was 3 months old and told me he wasn't happy and there was OW.... what kind of person does this? Then I get so angry that I'm pi$$ed that i've even given him time of day or ever said a nice word to him.... how can a true man abandon his wife and baby at a time when I needed him most?
How is it possible for me to miss him so much and want him back and then hate that I would even consider it for what he has done.... I'm just so sad and mad.... My C wants me to consider getting on anti-depressants b/c my emotions are so up and down. I'm thinking about it not sure..
I just want to feel better,,, I don't want to say I'm D, I want my H back but question if DB really is going to do any good and it is so hard when I'm so hurt.
arruuuggghhhh - going to bed back on tomorrow .... praying for everyone.
xoxo
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08
