I just wonder Donna..I wonder what I could have done? I wonder what I should have done? I wonder, what about now??..I think too damn much. I look for rhyme and reason when there is none. I wonder why when I said, "when I make a decision I stick to it" it was not just me talking bullchitt...why was it that, " I stuck to it"??
I get too damn introspective. For some reason I always have to try and figure out if what I'm thinking and feeling is normal and to have to do that, "does not seem normal" to me..I have to make sure for some reason that I have the same type feelings other people have..and I don't know why I have to figure that out for myself..I don't know why I let myself get in my head when I know better..is it part of growing through all this..or is it just stupid?? or maybe Batchitt crazy..
or is it just the old Thanksgiving trigger..
christ on a pony..this is frustrating..
and I can't fill in that blank...I know we are not crazy..
