For the Guy with Kids and a WW Neunzehn(19)

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Beej, I'll watch it tonight after I get my kids to bed. Can't at work.

Here's my confusion and maybe my thought process is flawed.

God has put a lot of people, including B, in my life for some reason recently. I HAVE spent time with B. Mostly as a group, but also dinner together sometimes. Everyone, including everyone here on DB, is playing a part in my life. I'm digging to make sure what part each one plays. Maybe he put B in my life to help me make it through this crap. Not to be with her, but with my wife. Filling an emotional need.

I've said this before. Deep inside, I don't feel it with her. Believe me, I've searched for it. I've have tried. I WANTED to find it. I'm just enjoying the company. I make no decision in my dealings with my wife based on B.

God has me in HER life too, for some reason.

Directly to you, Beej.
I completly understand what you tell me. I would be telling a friend the same thing you tell me. I'm giving you my honest thoughts, Beej. I give these to no one else in my life. No one.

Hang in there with me. I'll figure myself out.

I came across ANOTHER very old dear friend Saturday night at a burger joint. Must have been at least 10 years. We worked together at the very first job I worked at. The theater business. He also knows my friend Javi from those days.

Amazing.