I know what it is like to be in your own head too much, I actually asked my principal for more work b/c down time is brain time for me, which is not a good thing...
I heard a song on the radio today, have heard it many times and it "sticks" a bit every time. Almost turned it off today...it is a country song, "Love Remembers" by Craig Morgan--ever heard of it?
When you said you have these dreams/moments/flashes, it makes me think of that song. B/C even when you have moved forward with life, found someone new, built a new life, "love remembers". Guess that is part of the new life we are living, huh...
Thinking of ya Mike. Try to get out of that head today...
I'm wondering if this is still "good" for me and If I actually "help" anyone anymore..or if my purpose is just to provide some comic relief..or if it really matters either way..
Excuse me????? VOR!!!!!!! You have smacked me over the head when needed, given me encouragement when I couldn't see any hope, shown me the light at the end of the tunnel. You are very much needed for all of those reasons as well as the comic relief you provide. We all flock here for one reason Mike.......YOU!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Mike, we all take a step back from time to time. The wiser among us do it ONLY to gain some "power" to move even further ahead (excuse my English) like the athlets do at the games to achieve the best jumps... (please visualise, you will get what I mean). Part of the process... You know better... xxx K
The wiser among us do it ONLY to gain some "power" to move even further ahead (excuse my English) like the athlets do at the games to achieve the best jumps...
I like that word picture K! Very good. Back up to gain more power. Perfect!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Mish, Kalni, BBJ. Tim...oh I know..I just get in my head sometimes. actually an email convo with a good friend got me thinking...
Picture hillbilly Rodan, with clothes on, with a coonskin cap, and a "Muscle T-Shirt" on :D.. anyway I was telling this person via email that I would like to be able to talk to their spouse..and I'd tell the spouse the truth, I'd let them know straight up about how the changes are real, true and lasting..
that chitt just saddens me..It saddens me when I read about how all my buddies here work their assses off and go through so much pain......(and the thought trails off)
I've got more to say..but not now..I'll be back later..
You know to call me whenever, right? Guess even the best of us can get caught up at times....I am glad you shared that; makes me feel less...(you fill in the blank!)
I just wonder Donna..I wonder what I could have done? I wonder what I should have done? I wonder, what about now??..I think too damn much. I look for rhyme and reason when there is none. I wonder why when I said, "when I make a decision I stick to it" it was not just me talking bullchitt...why was it that, " I stuck to it"??
I get too damn introspective. For some reason I always have to try and figure out if what I'm thinking and feeling is normal and to have to do that, "does not seem normal" to me..I have to make sure for some reason that I have the same type feelings other people have..and I don't know why I have to figure that out for myself..I don't know why I let myself get in my head when I know better..is it part of growing through all this..or is it just stupid?? or maybe Batchitt crazy..
or is it just the old Thanksgiving trigger..
christ on a pony..this is frustrating..
and I can't fill in that blank...I know we are not crazy..
"I'm wondering if this is still "good" for me and If I actually "help" anyone anymore..or if my purpose is just to provide some comic relief..or if it really matters either way.."
We all deserve a day on the pity pot won't take that away from you god knows I have had my days on it to the point of where my legs become numb and red...
Who has it been to pry me off...who sends up the 'bat signal' and puts his stuff aside...there are alot of great people on these boards that help and have different ways of getting their points across but between you & Ian and your guys no nonsense straight up in your face whacks there are many here who appreciate a good 2x4 from the 2 of you to put one back onto the right track and to get oneself to say Hmmmm...
Now get the h*ll out of your head as you would tell me and get back to positive thoughts and move forward, you have spent enough time in the black hole...quit psycho-analyzing things you do ALOT of good here...
There I whacked you & stroked ya as you would do for me...
Mikey, when I start wondering about this place in particular, I go read some in newcomers and remember exactly why you and I are needed around here.
We control the amount that we use this place, we also control the amount that we contribute and give of ourselves. The thing is, we can do whatever we want based on how much we have in us at the moment.
I think you overthink way to fricken much, must be all the inbreeding.......
