Where do I begin?

[runningoutoftime]

>I feel like I am too good for him and he does not deserve me. <

How are you too good? What do you think your husband deserves? Isn't how you are acting, and what you are giving to the relationship now... what you think he deserves? (i.e. anger about what happened, coldness, divorce, etc...)

>I am still not sure how to get rid of the anger.<

But what he did is not about you. It's about his own problems, his own failings, his own weaknesses. It's not about what he did to you. It's what he did to himself.

Everyone is weak or strong in different ways. I married someone I thought was perfect, but I've learned there's no such thing as perfect. But I do know my H... I know the good and the bad, where he's strong, and where he's weak. But more importantly I've learned my own strengths and weaknesses.

One thing I've learned about me from the difficulties.... I can love people in spite of their weaknesses, and I can love people enough to let them go. It's just not all about me. And if my H does decide to leave me. I would feel very sorry for him because someone who can love and accept you no matter who you are, and the deep weaknesses you have, that can't easily be replaced. That's very valuable. My H's best chance for happiness is me and having his family together (and ultimately my best chance of happiness is having my children as well-adjusted as possible, and my family together). If he throws it away he loses... not me. I will know I did everything I could and I will have no regrets.