For the Guy with Kids and a WW Neunzehn(19)

[hopeful4her]

Ladies, I don't know. Maybe my head is on ass backwards, but I feel used. She takes what I give. Who doesn't love cake?

Concerning her dads death, I was the only one there to comfort her besides her little sister. Beej, I told you that maybe it was good for the long run.

She invites me for dinner? She's being nice to me. I give her unconditional love. She SHOULD at least be nice to me. Those are her crumbs that I snatch up.

She lets me help her? I feel taken advantage of. Just like a few months before she actually moved out. I was pursuing, buying her clothes, pretty shoes, getting her tattoo redone...
she just let me keep going on, until she finally had enough of my pursuing calls and emails and texts. I was suffocating her all of a sudden. We were both pursuing her. I lost the contest.

Like she has said before, she see's me as nothing more than a brother.

Kat, I don't see her NOT answering my texts as a good sign. I take it as the opposite. The light... she leaned in and pointed. I still turned it on myself.

I see Thankgiving as her way of having the best of both worlds. And I'm letting her.

Again.

I'm not giving up on her, but my resolve is definately thinning. Stepping outside of myself, I look at myself and think that I'm being played for a fool.

I'm going through emotions.

What I see is our relationship getting better, not our marriage. It may lead there someday, but that remains to be seen. You guys know I keep saying that it will happen someday, but not soon.

I love her, I want her, but I can't have her. Not right now. Right now, she obviously still wants him. I'm not dumb.

But I'll still keep holding on for now and hope that ya'll DO see things that I don't or interpret her actions different than I do.

Here's to hope.