Morning Sunshine! Up having my coffee and reflecting. Sorry about the hijack. It just seemed to fit with the conversation. I had done all of that in my head, but I had never ever put it down like that. It was an eyeopener. Woke up this morning thinking about it and I may have found a clue. Something that maybe, maybe was the part of me that caused this. For you, it was the cancer. For me, I"m beginning to think it was something I wrote for a class I had taken. Early mid 06, he said he had found it and read it and it really bothered him. I read it and at the time didn't see anything in it that would bother him. It was all about my struggle and how I realized how much I loved him. What I learned from his grandmother about strength in a difficult M with a difficult man. But I think maybe all he saw was how much he had put me through with his rigid behavior. He always respected his grandfather, but no one on earth would have wanted to be M to the man. I compared my H to him a lot in that paper. Gave him a look at how I saw him maybe. I don't know, I really have to think about this and see if there is anything I feel I can do to get him out of that mindset, that there is someone better for me.
So have a good day my friends! Love you all.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
Kel, I don't consider it a hijack at all. I know that writing all of that out was healing for you, and reading it was good in that I can see I am truly not alone in my struggle.
I'm tired too. An alien sighting this morning at 4:30 am and another one before he left for work. Grrrrr! He has since apologized.
On the good side. I went out with my boss for drinks last night. She is Native American (feather not dot, as she is fond of saying) I was talking to her about the sage smudge and she brought me in some this morning! Yipee! Can't wait for this weekend.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Good. It really does seem to help alot. Did she tell you how? It might feel a little stupid at first, but don't worry about it. Yes Hope, your H is a little crueler in his words sometimes than mine, but the message is still the same and I have come to really appreciate that I too am not alone in this. And my H too has started to apologize after the alien sightings. Which also helps a little.
Posted something on my thread in newcomers, my last entry (who knows who else has been there.) if you are interested. Have a good day. So this is the weekend of the trip?
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
morning girlie, heres some more coffee!! oh you poor thing! i will take my 34 over your 23 and snow lol!
wow so you get a break this weekend, are you excited?
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
