Morning Sunshine! Up having my coffee and reflecting. Sorry about the hijack. It just seemed to fit with the conversation. I had done all of that in my head, but I had never ever put it down like that. It was an eyeopener. Woke up this morning thinking about it and I may have found a clue. Something that maybe, maybe was the part of me that caused this. For you, it was the cancer. For me, I"m beginning to think it was something I wrote for a class I had taken. Early mid 06, he said he had found it and read it and it really bothered him. I read it and at the time didn't see anything in it that would bother him. It was all about my struggle and how I realized how much I loved him. What I learned from his grandmother about strength in a difficult M with a difficult man. But I think maybe all he saw was how much he had put me through with his rigid behavior. He always respected his grandfather, but no one on earth would have wanted to be M to the man. I compared my H to him a lot in that paper. Gave him a look at how I saw him maybe. I don't know, I really have to think about this and see if there is anything I feel I can do to get him out of that mindset, that there is someone better for me.
So have a good day my friends! Love you all.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
