Over the years she became more and more selfish and lazy and angry towards me. I gave her plenty of opportunity to turn it around and realized that life is too short to let someone be a drag on your ship through the sea of life.
I read that and could hear spouse saying something like that about me. And yes.. guilt or feeling guilty is my middle name which I am diligently working on changing.
When I let go of blaming, justifying the 'why', agonizing over past actions.. stopped those thoughts that turned my mind into mush and my heart thudding with angst.. something changed.
Dramatically.
I forgave him. I was given the gift of forgiveness. I still can get hootin' hollerin' annoyed at the man but I always stop and say (while waving my hands).. Hey hey hey.. He's forgiven! (just to make sure I don't pick that rope up again).
Give yourself plenty of sunshine thoughts.. they're so much better for you that mucky yucks.
