The Soap Suds Contiue

[kelaaron]

Mt-saw you read what I wrote on Hope's. I was not trying to play the pity party game. I was not sure when I came here if MLC was what I was dealing with or not. I did the timeline after reading what other people said, said they had heard, experienced etc... Hope really helped me. Her H and mine could be the same person with some of the nasty comments. I'm not really sure how long she has been living with it, and I'm not sure if you are or with something else. I got the feeling that is what Hope was trying to help you figure out. When you look at it, if you can, like that, it is eye opening. Yes I have made a lot of mistakes. Yes we had issues. But unfortunately that isn't really what I'm dealing with here. Hope either. Can't really fix the old problems until this passes. If it does. Don't really know if it will. That is why I'm sort of stepping back a little for a while. Taking care of me and what I want. I know where he is. I know as best I can what he is going through. I have posted so all over and with little consistency because that is how I had to learn about me and what I needed to do. Unfortunately, makes a story hard to follow LOL. Even the one person who totally gets me, from the inside out had to read that post to really see everything and understand that I am not just being stubborn right now. Putting it all down like that helped. I hope it gave you a little insight into your sitch as well.

So I will continue to post to you and the others and play but there won't be much about me for a while. Unless it is total frustration. I'm getting to where I need to be. To where I can really know what I need to do. Not out of anger, fear, a broken heart, or anything else overly emotional. Just acceptance. Funny for MLC, that is the final stage, who knew it would be for the spouse too.