Holiday season always sucked for me due to my messed up family as a kid and I carried that feeling on all the wya until now. I even at one point asked her to please calm down and stop trying to start a fight so we could talk. I let her know (as I have every year) she's the one that's kept me up through the holidays for the past 11 years and I really need to talk to her. All she could say is taht I should be talking to my "house-mate".
My historical depression during this time is definatley impacting my ability to keep on the path of keeping up on not being the person I've been to her that made her leave. Yet at the same time, there's so much going on with the kids that it's impossible not to have to talk to her.
Starting to wish this will all just end already.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
