In the beginning I was thinking I could change things, I see how wrong I was now. I am admitting that this could be it but I am not giving up. I think that is the key for me. To be realistic about what is happening and not in denial. I think the more I accept it the better GAL I can do. I am still in the beginning so it is still hard for me. I really am starting to detach but the more I detach the better I see her and the more I think she is gone.
I AM in this for the long haul. I honestly do not want to date or anything I want my wife but I am bettering myself and the more of a life I lead the better off I will be either way.
