Worse before Better?

[Sophie]

I don't know what to think...or what is right anymore.

I can't imagine H would think I am in ANY way okay with the D, and the filing he did last week!!!!

I don't care how wonderful he was yesterday. I have no knowledge that H dropped the procedings....or that he has had any revelations!!!

AND, now I'm doubting my success at living 'as if'....could it be possible I have lead him into thinking I am okay either way...D...or not?????

H would be an idiot to think that if I realize all the niceness yesterday was simply to 'butter me up'...or show me he CAN be a nice guy....that my anger wouldn't escalate!!

I do NOT like being tricked!!

I have this urge to inform him that whatever he thought he was doing yesterday, he's not going to change my counter suit!!

But..........I won't contact him.