I am not sure at this point what to do. I can just keep being me, that seems to screw him up and leave him more conflicted. Every time I am nice, funny, loving, etc. I think he is torn b/c it messes with his plans to leave. But I don't want to pack him up and throw him out the door, either.
So I was thinking I just go about my business and live my life doing what I can for myself and for my kids....and he can tag along, or go, or whatever. But I don't know what it will be like waiting for the other shoe to drop...I just wonder if I should bring this up at all, it seems ingenuine to just be perky and act like none of this talk ever happened. Like if I make dinner, laugh, joke, hang out w/him in the kids he will think I am in denial or trying to act like things are ok...does that make sense?
I mean, on one hand I don't want him to think I don't take his concerns/fears seriously. On the other, hanging around focusing on his unhappiness with our M doesn't make me appealing, either. It is so "me" to either go into overdrive making everything nice and pleasant, or go into overdrive trying to fix the situation that isnt mine to fix...
