I love the strange comment! That made me laugh! BG that is so great for you, I am hoping you will continue on the yellow brick road to peace! I would just like a kiss outside of sex, that right now is the only time we do kiss. I don't usually initiate the kiss he does, but we do kiss when having sex. I know that makes it more intimate for me because he does kiss. I would love a kiss other times. We got gas on the way home from KC yesterday and I was standing there chilly, we were laughing, had just walked over and looked at someone's deer in the back of their truck, an 11 pointer. I put my arms around H and put my head on his neck, he did press back to me, and nuzzled me (sounds like a horse) but never took his hands out of his pockets.
Hope that will be rough during the holidays, with family stuff so expected this time a year, it might bring the alien out more often. Sorry that will be very hard. Even if he doesn't want contact with him I am sure the expectations will be there.
It feels different here today, like everyone, except maybe me, has found a good place to be in. Hope you are realizing what is the trigger, Kel, you are in a good place, and BG you are making such great strides!
thanks mt, i have been dying to tell ya'll, figured it was better read over here than there lol. that is the first kiss aside from a small peck in all this time. thats why the tears. i was embarressed.
honey its not like I am in a better spot than you, I think I just released some things that had to be said, in real life, you would never know me, as I am so flippen scared. so tired from life and health and ow. and i know him, i cant trust anything he did this weekend. the reality in that, hurts like hell. i had to get those words to him, thats my reality, my reality was the dark pit I am so trying not to fall any deeper in, and drown there. ok enuff gloom, thats embarressing enuff lol
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
MT, even considering the only time that you get a kiss, I can tell you that you're getting more kisses than me!
I think that it's pretty important that your H is still maintaining physical contact with you. Touch in all of it's forms is such an important part of a R. Besides the kissing, have you noticed that your H is making steps in touching or being touched by you? The "nuzzling" and leaning into you sounds like a good thing. He did not jerk away or avoid you.
I know that the Holdiays are apt to be hard for H this year. The good thing is that he still wants to be around my family and our sons.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Other than the first couple of weeks, after the bomb, when he told me he was having to work at ML to me - which would have been before the bomb sex. H really hasn't had problems with being intimate, as long as he is in the good H mood. If the "I don't like you now" H is around there is no eye contact no touch nothing. I mean at this point last week we had sex at least 3 times. I just wonder is it all just sex to him and nothing more. I know he would say not, just because of the way he acted before when I said what are you doing? having sex with her and then coming home and having sex with me. It hurt him I would think that. I guess that is good.
Thanks Hope for making me think about the positives.
after H and the bomb, he told me once we shouldnt be doing this, it made me sick, but i rocked his world anyways.
I have figured out a few things about men. when they do what they do, and they blame us, we could can and will fix all those things, and they find new ones. its almost impossible ya know?
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
yes the law of attraction. There is a book and movie which covers a lot of it called the Secret. Became well known cuz Oprah pushed it on her show. I have Law of Attraction stuff too but around here we just call it the secret now. We secret things to and from us. I just haven't had the PMA to use it to fix my M.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
I understand BG. I don't have any list that I have to fix. I guess if I did then I could at least work on something. Other than H thinking I had an affair, H thinks I am great! I just broke his heart. I had asked him before what he wanted me change, H says nothing I loved everything about you.
