I just don't know. I think the good Lord has been preparing me for something much better. I think I do deserve better.
You don't ever have to question whether or not you deserve better, of course you do. But maybe God's just not done with her yet. Maybe it meant for you two to be "better" together. Maybe not, but you have to fight until you are ready to quit and only you will know when that time is. I can't help but think that the more contact you have with B and the pull of that "ready" relationship weakens your resolve to fight for your M. I'm not judging you by any means, I'm just telling you what I see as an outsider looking in.
If you are ready to move on and there is no "B" to move to then thats one thing, but if you are thinking about quitting because "B" is waiting and willing then thats wholy another.
You deserve the best my friend, as do all the wonderful people here on these boards. No one should have to suffer the pain and betrayal that comes with this chit, but here we are and we have to try and make it through. Sorry I'm kind of rambling...today is just not a good day for me. So with that in mind...take it with a grain of salt (or the whole damn shaker if you please.)
(((Hugs)))
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
