This morning I feel physically sick at the thought of seeing him.
I am determined not to cry beforehand so I look my best. The struggle i have is keeping upbeat.
He has kept to the agreement and not contacted me , which i think is beginning to upset me. as I think he is so busy with OW , it is easier not to have to look at me. All in my head of course, nothing to substantiate that.
Not sure how men react to things. Is 2-3 weeks still early days to hope for some sign , that he is thinking about me. I feel so stupid when I read that back.
Imagine how i looked to him this past year as I clung to a dying marriage. It is pathetic.
