Thanks guys, Yeah, I need to find someone with a regular car! I have one friend who drives a suburban with custom wheels that H's knows, my friend tiff, drives a Dodge with tinted windows, so at least I don't think he could see in anyway, it kind of blends in. LOL!
I met her about a year ago, when she first started working there. I had seen her at H's and her BF's work but never talked to her. I was still going in the store with him on Fridays - Sunday this summer up until late July. So everyone in there knew I was around. The night of the funeral and the "After party" H had come home before he went because they weren't ready yet for the party part yet she called and he answered (the only time he has talked to her in front of me) she asked where he was and he said home and she said sorry for calling there and he said it was OK. At that point he was full into the lust part, just listening to him talk to her made me sick. And when he hopped up and left it just killed me to see him like that. I have thought to myself a couple of times, it seems like a normal thing that the married man says to the OW, that he is going to leave his wife and then just keeps putting it off. Then I think well it can work the other way for me too. Although he has never told me he is going to stop seeing OW. I wish I was stronger and was able to say I could just tell him "how it is", but I am not. I think I feel I will hit it and it will just come out at some point. I almost don't think I just plan when or how I can do it, that is will come out when I have to let it out. Does that make sense?
