(((((dr.love, nc and Gf))) Thanks, sometimes I just need my feelings validated and it makes me feel better.

Today was better, although I had a lot of running to do this morning. Had to hunt for Lightning mcqueen party stuff for S2.. he's in love with that car \:\)

S5 was up with his asthma again. So Thursday I have to take him back to the dr. It kills me to see him like that.

You know what doc, I know that I would have to maybe find someone and not be alone, and it certainly wouldn't be anyone close to my age, because most of them are retarded (no offense to any 3o and up men on here) but It would have to be someone in there middle to upper 40's.. and to tell you the truth, I am so set in my ways, I would be alone.

Seriously, Im not giving up of course. We have plenty of good days, its just the bad ones are really bad and it takes me days to get over it.

I would never have an affair, I'd leave him first. I am loyal to a fault, so that's not happening.

Nc~ as always your advice is wise. I just have to start doing things instead of just thinking about them.

GF... I wish there was time for me.. there just isn't right now. My plate is so full until we leave for Disney... But maybe next wkend H and I can go out alone, that would be nice.

Thanks all.. have to get back to my mess.. Take care all.. love ya lots!!

me: 37
H: 44
Married for 18 years this june
S7
S3
porn issues, and much more... since 7/06

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.