and i take full responsibility for not sharing my feelings. I let him control my life up until now.
smothering?....cornering me in a room and talking excessively (over 1/2 hour at a time) about the R and literally following me around the house to do it all over again. Again I really thought he was losing it, honestly.
I have also learned from this board that my feelings can come back. Never, ever would have thought that to be true until coming here, so I appreciate that feedback.
I apologize for my cynicism. You are correct. That's been my safe place for quite some time and I agree it needs to stop in all areas of life.
