I am just tired of hurting, tired of trying to answer my S4's questions as to why mom doesn't love me anymore, why she doesn't want to live with us, etc. It is so damn hard to suppress your own emotions & pretend all is well when your heart is getting torn asunder. Felt that w was just using me to make herself feel good & played me like a fool claiming she wasn't leading me on. When in reality I fooled myself & then took those frustrations out on her.
I understand completely. I wrote a long post on another thread about the affect of D on me when I was a kid. It sucks, it hurts and he is only 4. He has a harder time with his emotions than you do. You are his rock and you must stay strong for him. Don't go into detail. Do not tell him the true reason and make sure that both of them know that you lve them and it is not their fault.
Originally Posted By: Kakatal
Just going to get back to living for today with my kids.
And that Kevin is all you can do and all that you should be doing for quite a while. Live for today, live for them and most importantly live for you.
Your W is not your responsiblity. Be civil to her and treat her with respect but that is it. Its just business from here on out. Kids and finances, nothing more, nothing less.
