Is this worth saving, or am I only fooling myself?

[Trying2live]

Hey dash,
I understand about the med's thing. For me I couldn't as in my younger years(teens) I had drug issues so I went the natural route. There are many ways if you are uncomfortable with the med's route. 1st thing is GAL, like taking those music lessons is really really going to help. Get out to the gym. Endorphin's will help create a better feeling for you as well. Do these things 1st. Your going to need to feel better to be able to do whats necessary.

I like alot of what faithrunner posted. Good stuff.

As far as SAA Plan A. You need to be in a good mental state to do this. It is not easy and that is why I say GAL 1st. When you feel mentally ready and at a stronger place then you implement it if you choose to. Plan A for men can last about 6 months. You do not go dark until Plan A is finished. Going dark is Plan B. Now Plan B will not work if you have not done a strong Plan A but you can't do that until you are in a stronger mental place.

GAL today. Do not wait. Yes it makes no sense and you want to lay in bed and just be sad buy I challenge you to go GAL. Don't wait another minute, pick yourself up, you can do this.

I signed up for salsa lessons 4 weeks after discovery as a GAL. Didn't make sense at the time. I just was so sad and I wanted to be sad but I FORCED myself to go. Guess what it was the most fun I had in a long time-even being married and every week I cherished that 1 hour. You find something fun and GAL immediately. Guitar lessons, dance lessons, wood working class...whatever. Its and investment in yourself and its going to strengthen you I promise. Choose something fun. When you feel better then you can 180 and start a strong Plan A that just may work. But you can't do this until your emotionally on the upswing.