Sorry for not posting in a while. I'm just trying to get out of my funk that I'm in....I'm missing H very much right now and I can't get him out of my head. Every morning when I wake up to when I fall asleep at night I pray for him to come home. I pray for God to place someone else in OW path and to release her from this relationship.
The odd part is when I meditate and focus in on my marriage things happen between them. It's almost like my thoughts and prayers impact their relationship. I've noticed when I don't pray then all I see are ILY's and "your the best" bla bla bla.. but when I pray and focus on what I want I see comments like OW says "if you want someone polite then you should find someone else or go back to the polite people you once had". It's really weird....
H sent D16 a text asking her what she wanted for xmas and to send him a list to his email. She tells me why should I send him anything he's not going to buy me anything he doesn't have any money. She said she doesn't want anything from him anyway. I think that is what is hurting me the most. The relationship between him and her that no longer exists.
One day at a time....
Me35/H35 D16/SS14 M-1yr/known H 18yrs 1st Bomb: 4/26 OW35 2nd Bomb: 8/17 OW21 Moved out 8/21/08 H filed D on 9/9/08
God determines who walks into your life...it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.
