I don't recognize her anymore

[faithisbelieving]

Not sure what that means GAD.

I came home from my buddy's 50th and, at 1:45 AM, my STBXW was sitting bolt upright watching TV. Unusual to say the least. D5 was sleeping next to her on the couch. As usual, I try to be polite and upbeat:

Me: Wow..what you are doing up so late? You should be asleep.
W: (mutters something)
Me: I'll bring D5 upstairs.

I then go to the MBR and go sleep.

In the AM, I awake and trudge to the coffee machine. Before I can even push the button:

W: WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO PAY ME THE MONEY FOR THE MEDICINE AND COPAYS???? (she gave me the note less than 2 days ago and I am required to pay 80% of noncovered med expenses.)

(I've barely even opened my eyes yet)

W: YOU ARE UNDER COURT ORDER TO A PAY. (she goes on loudly...pushing this in my face)

Me: (softly) I'm making my coffee.

She persists and finally, after trying to not say anything so early in the morning:
Me: As father and H (mistake for saying this), I'm going to take care of you and the kids.

W: YOU ARE NEITHER TO ME.

Later in the afternoon, I came home from my son's soccer game and W and D5 were gone. There was a note that was pleasantly written about how well D5 cleaned her room...how good a girl she was...and a smiley face was written. ??????????
When she came home, she crumpled it up and threw it out.

I'm not sure why it still hurts. I called one of my DB buddies who lifted my spirits. I guess....a positive here...is that I didn't react like I would have a year ago, took the beating, and stayed calm.

Again, like many here, I could sit for hours and trying to analyze all this:
-why was she waiting up?
-why did she have to attack me before I even had my eyes open?
-why a happy note with smiley face only hours later?

Forget it. It never made any sense and still doesn't.

Trying to stay strong.
FIB