Thanks for all of the wonderful support you offer me. I am okay today and looking forward not back, as Techguy wisely advised. I pulled off a good meeting and now am looking back to me to figure out how I can keep getting better.
As you mentioned, I just needed a good cry to let out all the emotions.
As for the ring, while I cannot know for certain, my gut tells me it was a test. At our last face-to-face meeting, I told H that I would like for us to hang out as friends and not talk about the R (this was pre-DBing but somehow, I got that part right). He said he did not think I could do it, given that he knows I want to reconcile. The indent in his finger was really deep, so I think he had only recently removed it. He saw me notice it missing. I think he wanted to see if I could keep my word.
You see, that has been an issue in the past. I would assure him I was over something or could change something, but then I would revert back to old behavior. He said as much at that meeting. He said, "Well I will take you at your word, but I have done that in the past and it has not worked out."
This is why I think he was testing me. I cannot be sure, of course, but if it was a test, at least I did not take the bait. I never said a word about it.
Back to looking forward. I have to get to work on plans for the weekend to ward off the FRI/SAT evening blues...
