Yesterday was the best! Other than we lost! H was in a good mood and we were sitting by fun people. H was happy he was next to a cute blonde and her H that had flown in from new orleans for the game. She was a talker. It was weird, she talked to us, mostly H cause he was next to her the whole game, I have never been the jelouse type, and today I felt even more detached I guess. I talked to the guys in front and beside me more than H all day. I think she even annoyed H some because she never shut up. There were two guys in front of me that were staioned at one of the local bases, and two guys beside me. H's friend and his son were there too, he sat behind us before the game then went to their seats, and was laughing cause I was already dancing and had only had 1 rum runner at that point. Our group around us and a couple of people behind us, all wanted to stand, but the people behind us kept getting security to make us sit down. I wanted to tell these people to stand up and cheer. I kept wanting to be on the fan came on the jumbo tons, and the guy in front of me kept trying to get me on! Then Scott Fujita who plays for New Orleans, used to be a chief, so I kept yelling his name, then the guys infront me were trying to get him too. I finally got a thumbs up from him. The New Orleans players weren't as friendly as the Tenn players were a month ago. The couple from new orleans said the whole group isn't very friendly, don't like to sign autographs. The guys in front wanted to see Reggie Bush, but he didn't make the trip. Even though we lost and Herm punted when we were on the 39 yard line, it was a fun game. It is much easier to watch the game at home. Half the time when I am there, I have no idea what the score it, because the score is on the end zone ends and we sit on the sidelines and I don't look that way. H also says, cause I am drinking too. On the way home, H asked if I wanted to stop at my mom and dads and get their old diesel truck to load with some scrap metal we have. It was just like H of old, we talked there about football picks and stuff for about 30 min. Made me think again about my boundary, because everything seems nice. He and I both thought about our going out with my Mom and Dad comment that H had made on Friday when we were drinking. Came home and H was funny, he was wearing under armor leggings under his jeans and took off his jeans and I said he looked like a football player. I was coming out of the bedroom and H throws me the football and then tackles me on the bed, it was funny. We laid on the couch and watched the cowboys and redskins game. We messed around and flirted some and then had sex. When he was putting his pants back on the dog wanted to go out so he went out with his phone.
At this point, I was thinking am I ready to put my boundary out there on Monday, I was really having second thoughts since he didn't go over and visit her after we got home like he has done in the past, and he is doing things like wanting to haul off the scrap metal. So this morning, I had to be nosy to see how long he was on the phone with her last night. On his phone he had called her twice, I thought that is odd, well there was a call at 4:22. We went to a McDonalds cause we both needed to use the restroom. He had to sh*t, was in there for a while, well he was in there for 3 min on the phone with her. That pissed me off so much. While I sat there waiting 2 boys went in and then two of the Dads did too. So I am thinking, they are in there with him, he is on the phone talking to her, and I am sitting out there waiting. I was having good thoughts about us, and then he calls her from the Sh*tter. So here I am back again to wanting to do my boundary.
How can you be having fun with someone and then call someone else. Or how can you have sex with me and 10 min later be calling your girlfriend. I am just flabbergasted, from his actions at this point. I sent him with his union paperwork today, so hopefully he will get that all turned in today. I think I am ready to tell him tonight, he has to make a choice I cannot keep doing this. I love spending time with him, but I don't want to only be happy part of the time and wandering the rest of the time.
