Ali - I have to say it was a natural progression for me, probably pushed by the fact that he has gone a step too far for me and also that I have been dwelling less and distracting myself more lately. However my post below negates that somewhat
Still nothing from H...
So, final proof that he has moved in with her ow wrote on my SIL's wall on FB
Hello! Welcome back. Sorry I am going to miss you tonight, but I am sure Mr (name) can handle giving you the tour.
All well?
Joanna x
Is she doing it to make sure I know?? Ok, not going to go down that path...
I have realised that one of my down points is waking up in the mornings - I tend to dwell and then that starts my day off bad. For example today I woke up this morning feeling a bit sick and anxious. I started getting paranoid that maybe I had made a mistake and they weren't together and I had reinforced h's view of me. Should I have carried on ignoring this stuff and been 'safe'? Jody said I was removing guilt by taking this action. However, it is a bit scary not knowing what he is going to say. There is not much point thinking about that as it is done.
Do I just stay dark? It is my inclination to just send a 'fun' text to let him off the hook so he doesn't feel badly/ negatively towards me. I think I probably shouldn't do that...
This weekend was fun but slightly stressful. I had a quiet day in the house on Saturday then I went to see 'Finding Nemo' on ice with my sister and nephews on Sunday. However my train was an hour and 20 mins late getting in so my sister was really stressed at me so it put a bit of a downer on the day. Apparently I should have gone up the night before... still, it was a good day overall.
