Where do I begin?

[Kelly23]

It ended last December to the best of my knowledge. They work together however, so I guess I should say they have not had contact on our cell phone since then and he tells me they do not talk. I started going to IC and he later agreed when I asked him to go with me. The counselor gave his steps to take to try to repair our relationship. That happened three times and then hubby stopped doing all those things..like going out on a date night, telling me when he saw or spoke to OW, asking me if I wanted to talk about it.
I guess I just think that if he does not believe I am important enough to try to work toward a relationship, then there is no need for me to stay in it. The more I think about it, I guess I have already decided I want to be divorced. Otherwise, wouldn't I be trying to save the marriage? Frankly, I see no reason in kissing his ass when I did not go find a man young enough to be my son to help me feel better about myself. He did. Man that was hateful. I have to figure out how to get over the anger. I am living under the once bitten, twice shy philosophy. I am not sure I can take the pain of this happening again so I am making sure I do not open up and put myself out there.