Hi Briget Your post Definitely fits into the DB principles and the fixing of ones self. Actually the removal of consideration for the X reguardless of their financial or social position is in my estimation the best insult one could deliver without trying. The fact that person is no longer a factor in your life (they become a nonperson) in many aspects is liberating. In a sense your are saying to the X 'You are dismissed'.
On being alone I believe you embrased what you feared and turned it into a positive. Courage is meeting your fears and overcoming them and if you have no fear then there is no courage.
"All I want is a weeks pay for a day's work" Steve Martin