Land of confusion

[redhottie]

H is out of town on business. He called twice today but I didn't answer. I saw his number on the id so I had D answer it as I really didn't have a desire to talk to him. Both times he asked to talk to me. I kept it short both times and ended the call.

I got to spend a few hours alone with D11 today. We just did lunch and some shopping. She held my had most of the time in the mall which made me feel great. I thought it was a lot of affection for a preteen to show in public. I get to spend a little alone time each night with D16 after D11 goes to bed but it has been awhile since I got to spend that much time with D11.

I'm still doing a lot of thinking and trying to decide if I am done or not. I'm supposed to go to the T on Thursday but I am going to have to postpone because D11 has something important going on that I won't miss.