Is this worth saving, or am I only fooling myself?

[Dash]

I screwed up and did a huge backslide yesterday.

At least I think we may have had an honest conversation for once.

Found out the EA is not the first, in fact he's the third, and it's his second go around with her. All within the past 7 months.

He's not in Germany, he's in Holland.

She says she is completely done with us. I told her I wasn't going to file for divorce that she would have to since she's the one that wants it. She said she would.

Do I start DB'ing again? Is it really worth it? She still puts it all on me and blames me for everything. She was pissed that I didn't bring her the lenses the other day and said she had to spend 50 bucks she didn't have in order to get them.

I don't know what to do now. I'm not sure if I want to do anything, but I still have this emptiness and aching inside. And I really don't like the idea of divorce, but I have never seen a woman with no remorse or guilt what so ever.

In fact her answer to me was that she has never really felt guilt, to her once a choice is made, it's made, no sense in regretting it. And I have never seen a person be so cold. I really don't think she has a conscience.