Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

[phbear316]

I have been over in newcomers for well over a year, and its time to move to this side, thanks to GM I am following in her footsteps.

I have heard this song on friday and cannot stop listening to it.

The main line i is sometimes goodbye is a second chance, and i so feel every single word of the song. This is my second chance to life to happiness.

I am moving in less than two weeks to my own place, since stbex cannot move towards divorce he is having his cake and eating it too. He spends 95% of his time with ow and her kids then comes home to have his laundry done and a place to sleep and get away from three kids.

I am done and moving on with my life. There is no hope in saving this marriage for I do not want to save it.

I need to move on and have to move on.

I know i tried my best to save my marriage but know that i was only one person in the pair of two that wanted to save this marriage. stbex does not wish and or want to save us. He is more interested in ow and kids.

The list is long of what stbex accused me of and not one makes sense to me. To make it short and simple my h accused me of not bettering myself in my career, not wanting to have children to then saying he did not want me to be the mother of any of his children via ours or adoption.

My heart is broken and some days i feel like i failed. But know I did not.

Stbex has to know I am getting ready to leave or he really does have his head up is a&^ and so in love with ow and being part of a family. My h has issues from his childhood I tried to help him with but now realize they were much deeper than I even realized.

I am looking forward to my freedom, to my new life, for I need to say goodbye to this marriage to give myself a second chance in life. I am done crying my tears, I want everyone to know that this is good for me and i will make it thru. I have done the best I can, but my life must go on. I am not angry, don't cry any tears for me. I am proud of what I am about to do. I never though It would happen. But it will on 11/28.