Get this ... I said this to H last night. Well that commerical for E harmony came on.. and he jokingly says, would we match up. I said no, we don't have anything in common anymore, just the kids and we talk business that's it. He says I was being ridiculous... I guess he really doesn't have a clue.
Yesterday was high emotion for me...I really needed the friend in my H but he wasn't around. I don't know guys, Im dissapointed, worried, and scared. Im dissapointed in him for not realizing what is going with us, worried that things aren't going to change, and scared that one day I will be really alone with no "partner".. maybe Im sounding selfish, but Its partly my fault. Ive totally engrossed myself in my children and working for the business and trying to make H happy, there's nothing left for me. I chose that route, and I know I will pay for it. I know im sounding like Im feeling sorry for myself (which H always seems to mention to me when I try and explain how I feel)...
Blah... ok all that was just a big blob of info..
sorry for the retarded rant.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
