I know I know I know. Hey I actually have one that fits that bill but he is only 22. Not too young for you is it? LOL

Did you go get any books?

Yes I did get my hair cut. Thanks for the comment. I got it stacked in the back. H didn't even notice then said it looked "choppy". Even the littlest thing they know how to get to you. But I'm not going to let him get to me anymore. I did a little last night but that is just it, no more. Still haven't figured out quite what it all means, but it is how I feel.

Hope, he DOES love you. That is part of the problem. It's really hard to fight the fight of still loving them when they are so continuously horrible. So love Hope. That is all you can do honey. Some days I think the "peeks" are just their way of holding on, or keeping us holding on.

One of the things i did years ago when we had a really bad bad patch, (we were both using the D word almost daily) was to finally say to both of us, unless we are really going to do it, that word CAN'T be used anymore. It helped a little. The fighting and whatnot slowed. Do you know what I just realized? That word has never been used again. Not in 9 years, and not even now. I'm done, I don't want to be with you anymore, and all of that, but no D word. Things that make you go Hmmmm........

We all love you Hope, and we know what a special person you are.
You do so much for all of us. Lean, it's your turn.

If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.