Home, having real coffee. That instant stuff just doesn't cut it. So I'm going to sit here and relax a while as the coffee starts to do it's work. If I hadn't been woken suddenly and had to run out of here in about 3 min, not even sure if I've got clean underwear on or not, I would be much happier. But since that wasn't the case, I'm starting my day NOW.
Yes I think they are baby steps. Keep up the good work and PMA.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
I got up with H this morning and had coffee with him before he left for opening morning of gun season. His nervous excitement had me gritting my teeth and really using my best DB skills.
It should get better after this initial foray.
As we were drinking coffee I could not help but think back to the years when the OM and his young sons would come over early to our house for breakfast after the first hunt of the day. Wonder if H was/will think of that. Seems so sad that those friendships has been lost, because H and the other W had to cross the EA line. I wonder what those boys think. If they will remember their past good times with us, or if they will grow to men being resentful of H because of the weirdness that grew between him and their mom?
Why don't people just do the things that they are supposed to do?
I know that I will never be comfortable with her as a friend, or in my home, ever again. So sad.
Last edited by 1hope; 11/15/0811:23 AM.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Morning Sunshine! I'm playing hide and seek with Tomato. LOL. That man is sooo funny.
I'm glad you are enjoying your coffee and peace and quiet. H at work, S will be at karate then bowling, so I too am looking forward to a nice quiet day. Put some pics up in the alt if you want to look. Still have to transfer the ones of Jon Grueden. Will do that later on.
H- (I like that better than Tracy and you wear it well), it will be a long time, if ever for you to be comfortable around that W again (it is easier to be mad at the W than H but I think you know that.) My step father was actually my father's business partner. In the end, he stole my mother, us, and left my father holding the financial bad from the failed biz. SF filed bankruptcy, and my dad did not. SF was always really good to us, and I will never know the true dynamics of parents R or anything like that. But I have hated SF since he moved in. It was only after S was born, and I saw how much he loved S who is not his true grandchild, before I could get past my anger and see how much he had actually loved us and the good in the man. We are still not super close, but I now I appreciate the life he did give to us, and I look at him as a person and not a monster. I have had to admit to myself that I do love him. He is my parent (wierd, he and my mom are my parents and dad and his wife are my Dad and his wife). Don't worry about the kids. You don't know how much they even really know and the A is over now anyway.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
morning namesake!! its so cold here, mid 20's with the horrible windchill. yuck. its bad enuff we live on a rollercoaster with our H's, now its a weather one here in ks the next couple of days too.
wow sounds like you had quite a past 24 hours with h, least he is out hunting finally, its coming up here soon too. Glad you watched the wizard of oz that made me smile!!!
hope today plays out better for both of us! love ya
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Hey Hope, glad that you will have a quiet day, while H is hunting. It is bow season here not yet rifle. My night was great and hope tomorrow's game will be fun. I am thinking it will be cold!! YUCK! If the sun was out it wouldn't be as bad, but the wind is cutting right now.
Hey K- What you said really made me think about H and SD. She lived with us since she was 10. We were her parents, her mom was just her mom. Many have said that we were the rock for her and made her life good. Her Mom moved around and has been with many different guys and has never been stable. When you said how you felt about your Mom and Step Dad being your parents, made me really thing about what what H and I have meant for her. I know that is why she feels her Dad is betraying her too, because even though she and I haven't always gotten along, she always knew that we loved her and are here for her. Which I told her that no matter what she will always be my daughter.
My day was not as quiet as I had thought it would be. It was the alien that came home to the nice, warm breakfast that I had ready for him. Mean and nasty and sooo totally unexpected. He just would not stop. So I got dressed and left.
I spent the day shopping and did not come home til 5. At 6:30 my oldest son and his F brought my grandson over so that they could have an evening out together. H was here and was good with the kids, and good with the baby, but I am just fed up with his verbal abuse.
I am so angry at him right now that I don't think I can even vent about it here. I am really sick of his crap.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
