(((Red))) I have missed you Girlie...how have you been???? Since getting my own office ;\) I don't get much time on the boards these days and sometimes it really sucks.

I think we all have to go through this period of making ourselves better people. We look at our flaws, and realize that although we are not perfect, there are areas where we can improve.

For me, one of the biggest things I have realized is that there have been times in my life when I have said things, done things, without realizing the consequences of my actions, or how I hurt someone else. I think part of that wisdom came with age, but it also came when I realized that it had been done to me. And I believe that sometimes I just did not think past my own needs to see the needs of others.

But what I take from this is that sometimes you have to put others first. For me, realizing that as much as I hurt, my H is also hurting now too, and he needs to deal with it on his own. Whether or not we come out of this together is not up to me. I will be here. I am not giving up. But I also know that this battle is his, and there is nothing I can do. He has to fight it.

BTW, I am about to be a grandma again!!! D23 starting having some back labor today, and although it is intermittent, I suspect that Baby will be here soon!

My birthday is on Thursday, so I am looking at getting a early present!!!

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..