Regular life - it's Saturday and that means taking care of a bunch of personal things. Gotta vacuum today, do some other housecleaning. I am glad to have a house, so happy to do all this. The vacuuming - when the kids stay with me they throw of a lot of debris. So I am thankful that I have the chance to vacuum, because if I didn't need to vacuum, then it would mean I wasn't seeing the kids! Also wanna wash the car today, run some other errands. Just regular life. Which is good.
Counseling - I had a group session this morning. It's good. I did not volunteer for this (it is court ordered), but the counselor is good and the group is helpful. I see other people's problems, and it gives me compassion for them and patience in my own situation. I don't particularly like the part about being ordered to go - some Saturdays I would like to do my own thing, get up late, or just go out of town. But it is what it is. I'll make the best of it.
coffee - I have a very few vices. I don't smoke, don't gamble, don't swear (much), don't do drugs. Well, no drugs except for a select few: Coffee, Chocolate, and Scotch. And this morning I had a couple of nice cups of coffee. The latte I get from the coffee ladies at the shop near my place is the best. Starbucks pales in comparison. Anyway I enjoyed the coffee this morning.
Time to myself - Saturday was family time when we were all together. Now it isn't. So I am enjoying the independence and keeping my own schedule.
I think maybe I will go out to find some music tonight.
M 43 S14 S13 D11 D7 Divorce final: Jan 2009 Making it up as I go....
I wouldn't want to be court ordered into anything, but if you do then make the best of it. I am always amazed at how the courts can rule your life once they get involved.
Coffee and chocolate sound good, not so much the Scotch. Time out enjoying the music sounds nice. Not having to reflect upon what once was.
At least you are still thankful.
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
mmmm dark chocolate! And ice cream, oh and apple pie. Ok, now I am hungry.
Sir, its funny you mentioned the leaves. Yesterday while I was working with my special, wondersul kids in school, we went outside. I told them to go into a pile of leaves and kick their feet around. Big kicks, send the leaves flying. They loved it! We made crunching noises and looked at all the colors. It was great fun.
I had to laugh when you spoke about vices. I dont smoke, drink, gamble, do drugs either. But the swearing, well, not much but sometimes you just gotta let it out.
experience - because I know that when I get lonely, or down, or frustrated, or depressed, I know the feeling will pass. I am thankful for having had the experience, to understand that It's ok, it's ok to feel down sometimes, and I know I will pop back up the next day. I never wanted the eexperience, but now that I have had it, I am thankful. I don't think of it as "emotional scars" but "emotional muscles". I can handle the moods.
movies - I've been watching lots of movies lately. Some good ones. I like action/destruction movies, like War of the Worlds or Cloverfield, or dramas, like There Will Be Blood. I did not go for Sweeney Todd. Usually I like Johnny Depp, but after the third song, I turned it off. Yes, it was like a musical. In a British accent.
fantasies - I have lately been fantasizing about the car I would buy, if and when I save up the money. Maybe an older convertible - like a '67 Austin Healy 3000 or a '69 Mercedes 280SL. Or maybe an old pony car, like a '67 mustang fastback. Something like that would be fun to work on. I sometimes fantasize about the house I would like to live in, too. Right now I am renting, but I would love to have a house to work on. I'd fix it up just the way I like it.
SirPrize! You are the man, Sir! (As opposed to "the manse!") Just checking in to say hello, and also tell you how impressed I always am with things I see from you, both on this thread and all over the board! You are a shining star in the firmament, and a blessing to MLC-raddled spouses everywhere in DB-land!
Peace and blessings, Dawn
Me 45/H 47, no kids Together since 1985; M/1992 Bomb1 (EA-OW1, age 22) 2001 Bomb2 (EA/PA-OW2, age 22) 10/2007, A continues H left 11/24/08 minimal contact, no legal action http://tinyurl.com/DawnHope1
SirPrize, Awwww...that's so sweet! (Is it okay to call a guy "sweet"? It is supposed to be a compliment, after all!)
Peace and blessings, Dawn
Me 45/H 47, no kids Together since 1985; M/1992 Bomb1 (EA-OW1, age 22) 2001 Bomb2 (EA/PA-OW2, age 22) 10/2007, A continues H left 11/24/08 minimal contact, no legal action http://tinyurl.com/DawnHope1
