I have not posted to you before and just started reading about your situation. Don't really have much advice, just wanted to offer some words of support to you.
I am having a very bad time if it tonight, for different reasons than yours but could tell from your post how much you are hurting.
Anyway, you said you hope there is life after this. There just simply has to be, doesn't there? I was just wondering the same thing moments ago and then I read your words. This world is too big, with too much in it for there not to be life after this. I think it's just hard for us to see when our S's have filled our sights with pain.
Rambling a bit, I guess. Really just wanted to reach out and offer some support.
