welcome.. I've posted on Newcomers and this thread from the start... get great advice on both.
I'm right where you are... struggling, missing my H so much, one minute I want to detach and not see him next minute I miss him... I'm having a bad Saturday.. I just want to know when will the pain stop, the heartache go away... I'm much better than I was month one but still very raw and emotional most weeks... this isn't a one year boyfriend for any of us... we married, had babies together... I guess my marriage vows meant more than they did to H.
I ask the same questions, why do I even keep the glimmer of hope of wanting him back? I can't imagine not being a family some days, I hate the thought of saying I'm Divorced, and more importantly I hate that my girls won't have there dad in there home everyday..... I also can't imagine sharing holiday's and weekends... it kills me. Bottom line, I still love this man and he was such a great husband and father prior to this A and his MLC... or what I hope is a MLC that he is going through...
I can't decide some days to DBing or to throw it all in.... I'm still too emotional so I'm trying to just play it cool but not doing a very good job of it...
So PM not sure I have any good advice.... only each of us can decide.. Question, does your H ever bring up divorce? Mine does so I know that is what mine wants, at least right now.
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08