I know he has NFC (no f'in clue) disease...I think it throws him every time we have a nice time, like today...it makes him question why we can't be like this all the time, then he does something to try and make old bbj come out so he can prove that we can't always be happy....hope that made sense...
Anyway I have finally come to accept that I cannot change him, I can only change myself. I cannot save him, fix him, persuade him, make him stay. I can only be me and roll with whatever happens. I know I did absolutely all within my power to make our M work, so I can be at peace about that. Anyway, I am just going to follow his lead and see what happens. I am planning NOTHING for this evening, he said to ask my parents to watch the kids, so I will let him determine the rest...(old BBJ would try to plan something fun/exciting/romantic if we had a babysitter, to WOO him, but it isn't my job to WOO at this point...)
