Sittin here alone I'm lookin back on where I've roamed And laughin, oh how I swore I'd win and not get burned. Left my family, left my home I worked my fingers to the bone And there was not a stone I did not leave unturned.
And I was having a good time Oh, Roll On, roll on, roller coaster We're one day older and one step closer. Roll on, there's mountains to climb Roll on, were on borrowed time. So roll on, roll on rollercoaster, Roll on tonight
Money and success I don't complain about the stress I wanted this and now its here So I don't bitch. And I swear that time's a trick It disappears oh so quick Man I was just 16, Now I'm staring at 36. But I'm still having a good time! (Good time!)
Oh, Roll On, roll on, roller coaster We're one day older and one step closer. Roll on, there's mountains to climb Roll on, were on borrowed time. So roll on, roll on rollercoaster, Roll on tonight
So it rolls on.. The threads keep rolling by, time keeps rolling by, the D process keeps rolling on. I keep moving forward, to what exactly I have no idea.
I can't believe my last thread locked when we were having such jocularity and fun.
Out again last night with customerservicerep38. We still go out and enjoy time together but there is really nothing else. I don't feel a connection at all other than just having a good time. I don't actually know if I can feel a connection with anyone. Does that seem weird to anyone?? This also makes me wonder if I should just break things off with her?? Not see as much of her..I guess I have a fear of her becoming attached, wanting more than I will give at this point. She says she is on the same page as me but is she really?? I wonder. These thoughts are a clear sign to me that I'm not ready for a serious R at all but I do want to go out, have fun, enjoy the company of a woman. Which is normal I think..for where I am at the moment..
This past week has been filled with a couple of dinners with CSR38, sushi and beers, some texting back and forth with a few interested ladies, High school basketball, a pancake breakfast this morning(a fundraiser for my little Bros high school basketball team) now I'm home preparing and awaiting the arrival of suckers and the start of a Texas Hold Em game...
yes my life is full..I would not call it exciting but I would call it fun. I stay occupied. I stay busy. It is my life..
