For the Guy with Kids and a WW Neunzehn(19)

[hopeful4her]

Invites from all them.

I had called B earlier in the day, because I ordered those DTV Free converter box coupons for her. She doesn't have cable and doesn't use rabbit ears, so not tv for her. I got them in and got a box for her and I. She invited me to dinner and a beer at Bennigans, so I went. We have a mutual friend that is having a Bday party for her son on Sunday, so considering that. Not going together. Offered to install the box, possibly on Sat.

I know, I know.

I never got a final response from the wife yesterday and just left it at that. About an hour after I got home last night, Amanda gave me a call. She is ready for bed and very tired. She is in bed talking to me, Juli is already asleep and Miguel is out at a skating rink. While we're talking, I can hear the wife in the background ask if I'm at home. Amanda asks me and I tell her that I just got home and why. She started talking about something else, so she didn't answer me. I ask about what they had for dinner and she tells me that the apartment office had a Thanksgiving dinner for the residents. They all ate there and she tells me that she wished that I was there and that she's sorry that she didn't save any for me. I play with her and get on her case about it, jokingly. She is starting to doze off, so I tell her goodnight and ask to speak to her mom.

The wife gets on the phone and sounds like she was asleep. She says she keeps dozing off, saying how sleepy she is. I ask about what time is better for her and she says it doesn't matter. I then joke with her about Thanksgiving not being next week and if she is still going to make the tamales. She says she is because she will have to work next Sat. I ask her if she has everything she needs and she says yes, she is just going to make chicken tamales. She just needs to go purchase the masa.

Thats the cornmeal mixture that holds the filling.

I ask about Miguel and she says that she is going to try to call Miguels friends dad to maybe pick him up and they could meet closer in. I tell her that I'll go pick him up so that she doesn't wake the girls up or have to leave them there alone.

"No. Your all the way at home and you just got home."
"I've been here about an hour. I'd rather go and you stay there with the girls. I'll leave right now."
"(Sigh) I'll call Miguel and let him know. Thanks."

I take off at about 10:30 to pick him up. On the way to the apartment, I ask him what he is planning tomorrow. He wants to practice his drums with a friend playing guitar for a couple hours and then he wants to spend the night at my parents house.

My parents haven't seen him in maybe a month or more. I tell him that that is a good idea and well make arrangements. The wife calls me to ask if I got him already and I say I do. She tells me to be careful and I tell her that we'll be right there.

At the apartment, I give him the blender to give to his mom and we say our goodbye's.

On the way home, my separated bud calls me to join him at a bar. He had been forwarding me funny texts all night. I tell him that I'm just heading home. Maybe tomorrow night.

Today might be interesting. After the movie, I'll suggest a barbeque.

Doing things with no expectations is pretty freeing. Although some things she does upsets me, it isn't anything close to like it used to. And I'm close to being a walk away myself. I keep finding myself to B more. No flirting, just talking about our days and whatnot. Not that I'm moving away from the wife. It's just really hard to explain. Like I'm in the position of control with both. Nothing romantic with either of them. Just spending some time with both. Recently, moreso with the wife.

I would hate to think that I'm just pouncing on breadcrumbs that the wife is throwing my way. I'm protecting myself.

Of course, the wife has the ball in her court, but it may get to the point that I just want to stop playing, pick up my ball and go home.

Ultimately, the decision lies with me and I plan on continuing with the wife. Courting her. Knowing she has two and I'm at the disadvantage.

But I'll continue.