"oh he really wants me and blah blah blah" is you living in his head.
Ha Ha SPM you are funny. It makes me feel wanted i suppose.
You are definitely right about getting out an doing stuff. SOMETIMES I want to just to wallow. Not healthy, not helpful and very pathetic.
Just got home from the movies with girlfriends. Saw Road to Radinvich ( or something like that ) Chick flick about second chances. Not good for anyone Dbing however it was an escape. And after that escape which is now ,I feel a little better .... if he wants someone else, then too bad for me, go enjoy, your loss, blah blah blah.
Tomorrow though is Sunday and the hardest day for me. I have to get out of this house, when this house needs a s*&^ load of attention.
Yet I have a solution , i will pay someone to come and clean it this week! Takes the pressure off at least something.
Hang in with me.
To answer questions . Yes i see C every week. Her diagnosis and don't laugh SPM is that I am presenting well and don't really need to see her. Thats because I ask and answer all my own questions. This week I shall ask about me letting go and why I struggle. I think I have not been dealing with the issue at hand and that is me.
As for telling H about this site, I suppose it is to show him I care etc etc which I know is so wrong wrong wrong. He will know I care properly when I have let go.
