It seems to be working! Sometimes....

[sandycay]

So, today he played golf, and then stayed for 1.5 hours after golf until 6:30 with no phone call to say he was staying for a beer with the buddies at the CC. Now, he wonders why I get aggravated. I will say I have not expressed this to him on this night as that seems to be a problem. I mean it gets dark here at 5, he started at 12:30, he would typically call at 4:30-5 saying I'm done, gonna have a beer with the guys and come home. Tonight nothing....although I asked him at 12:30 did he want to go out with friends that invited us out. He said yes, so we were waiting for him to call. Rude, although he did apologize and say he lost track of time. WHAT THE FOUCKER EVER. Finally I just went to their house where he eventually showed up and we hung out and played a few games (which I kicked ass BTW) and then we came home.... then this is were it gets really weird and awkward for me to talk about....but we haven't ML since Wed am. We are on minimum once a day if not more type people... Now, this has really put my radar up and I am confused more than ever. How do I approach this? He could tell when we went to bed that I was a bit put off that I could tell he was going to sleep. All my thoughts were to be honest was "I bet he didnt' go to sleep on her"...uughgh now I can't sleep again and have a 9 mile run in the morning to complete in 1hour 20 min. at best. My hair just started growing back in from the shock of the bomb last Jan from lack of nutrition and I am having trouble eating again. I dropped way to much weight last Jan-Feb in to short of time. At one point it was 14 pounds in 13 days. My dr pointed it out. Anyway I don't want to be like that again. Unhealthy and harming my body. The lasting effects are dramatic. I am of small build so weight like that coming off is not good. My caloric in take is in the negative because of my training for this race but damn it I have been training hard and don't want to have to quit 3 weeks out because of this stuff.

Running provides me with "no brainer hours". I am the Forrest Gump of my neighborhood.

I don't know what to do anymore. I acted "as if" when he came to our friends tonight and made sure to touch him (his Language of Love) I know he knew I was not aggravated that he didn't call. We had fun and we got home and nothing. It's like if othe people are around it's a show and fun and if it just us.... I'm so tired and sleepy. (not normal)

Rambling and it's late....my apologies

Blessings to all