"oh he really wants me and blah blah blah" is you living in his head.
Get out of his head. Mind your own business. Find something to do.
In this situation does everyone tend to think the worst ..... or is it just me that sees catastrophe around every corner , as has been suggested.
It's normal when you are lonely and have lost something you treasure, to think about it always. To dwell on it. But it is not helping you. I promise. You are drawn back to it over and over. You need to stop. Get busy with something else. Find or invent a project for yourself. Take up crochet. Or writing. Or singing. Or take a pottery class. Just get busy.
What ever happened with the counseling? did that help? are you still going? I don't recall you posting anything about any ongoing counseling sessions.
Did you print out my advice to you and give it to your counselor to see what s/he thinks?
