New Here-From Newcomers- hoping for more input...

[optimistwife]

Okay- so my stupid e-mail didn't get a response- which was good. But it did get read, and perhaps made him think. I haven't done a whining e-mail or call in soo long. I think it was the breakdown from being sick and lonely and really needing someone and being mad it wasn't him there for me. (Shouldn't have surprised me...)

I think what hurt is that things have been going so well that my thoughts have gotten ahead of where we are. We AREn't to reconciliation- I can just taste it though...

He send me a text that I wasn't allowed to make HIM feel guilty (I think he felt guilty himself) because I said that I needed help and a friend and wished he could have been there.

It almost turned into a fight-He was prepped to go into it... I was pretty good at deflecting and said I am sorry you feel that way. I was hurt by what you did. I just couldn't DB and pretend that all was okay. He hung up quickly and with anger saying he had to go. Then called back in 5 minutes wondering if I knew where some of his DVDs where (they all moved out with him months ago). I looked and didn't find. And asked him questions about the rest of his day and apparently all was forgiven? He asked if I wanted to come visit him last night.

It was already late 10pm, but I figured I wasn't gonna sleep with my hyped up stage so went to his apt. He was fairly quiet and shy, played sappy country songs (apologies?) and asked if I wanted to lie down with him. We fell asleep- he woke up in middle of night to ML, and then cuddle in the am.

So- not sure about the whole turn of events- I guess no horrible damage done- but regression on my part. He did ask me to t-giving, but I have to work that day. I am holding out for x-mas!