Limbo, I've read most of this thread & want to get some thoughts out there before I forget. Although you have been going through this for over 2 yrs now, things have never been consistent, so you have never really had time to build the trust again. Now the latest and you guys are pretty much starting all over again. I am just now getting to a more comfortable spot and we have been "back together" for about 1 1/2 yrs (although one of those yrs he was deployed and he's now been home since May, but I digress).
It wil take A LOT of time, but it will come. Sooner or later you will feel confident enough to know that either (1) he will not cheat again or (2) if he does you are for real done & he can kiss your a$$.
Also, just on a side note, I JUST got a card w/ a full-on, sincere "apology" just this week saying he knew he could never take back the damage he has done, but I am all he wants & cannot imagine ever living w/o me.
All of the hurtful things that are said, done etc. take so very long to heal and they never truly go away, but you DO get to a point where you quit "wondering" if they are "doing something they shouldn't be doing" and not just b/c you would kick them to the curb, but because you just KNOW that they won't do that again.
Hang in there girl, you're still in there for a long haul, but he is back.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
