By keeping quiet - What is he doing ? does it make him think or will he be kcking his heals up with joy ?

My c says that as we were, i was smoothering and as I back off he has time to lift his head an think - Is this what I really want ?
But the other side of the coin is that for the past 3 years when I have been smoothering , he might of been trying amd now he is relieved that i have stopped.

Today I cant imagine life without him. I wish I could. Possibly tomorrow I will.