Today my heart feels just heavy.

I fight to keep out of his head. Where is he, what is he doing, constantly thinking the worst. I dont act on it and sometimes I do think oh well.

I know know know that what i was doing beore being needy and available did not work. This is the 180 of that.

Why do our hearts have to be involved. If I could let my head rule, then i would be ok

Am I doing the right thing. I do need reassurance